just plain old sick

I am sick of being sick. My MS,anxiety, homesickness, loneliness is just hard!! I have no friends here and I am so far away from home. So many people I meet here are single serving friends it seems The friendship lasts just one chance encounter. It scares me to pieces not having health insurance or a Dr and I just miss my family so much. I miss going over to their place for a weekend and I miss the few friends I had there. I just need to get this out I know it takes time and I should be more adventuresome and go out and meet people but I just don't do that and never have done that. Every time I ever tried I just ended up sitting in a cafe alone. Aarggghh it is so frustrating.