yay pain

So my back is killing me. Here is a list of the other MS symptoms I have.
*Intention tremors in my right hand
*Optic Neuritis
*fatigue
difficulties in mobility
*difficulty in balance
*problems with constipation'
*urination starting and stopping sometimes or inability to hold it
*depression

but all that aside I feel I am quite lucky. I feel I am healthier than I was before I was diagnosed. I am smoke free, eat right, work out, and lift hand weights. There is always a brighter side to a silly disease.

I. Sarah. The Lab Rat

Since I am now unable to work, I have decided to use my time helping with doing research for OHSU. When I had my last neurology appointment, my Dr., Dr. Overs suggested two research opportunities, one balance and MS and then one Lipolic Acid. I did both and then also received a call for another for Gait with MS. and last night I heard of another one, on Wellness and MS. This one will be interesting because it is a study on depression and anxiety with MS. It doesn't pay but this one is very interesting to me because I am going through, or have went through in the past. I like to spend my time on doing something to better the research for this crummy disease.

my 2012 resolution

So it is 2012 not, and normally I do not believe in resolutions but this yea maybe I should have a change I aspire to. (The reason I never had one was because most people I see that make them fail that resolution) I want to this year to fight my right hand tremors by using it as much as I can. I luckily was given a hypnotherpy session with Richard Chase of The Gnosis Group to help me visualize my mind to repair the connection.
My hand is still shaky now but I am able to use it more than I was and will continue to work on it. Next to work on is my depression.