dreams are gone

I feel like my dreams were stripped away from me. I had thought that I would be a professor or a curator at MoMA and going to study in Germany. So many dreams I dont think I will will ever do since I can barely walk. I have to keep hope alive

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I dont know if I want life to keep going on if it continues like this. I dunno...I am in a lot of pain and when I cant do things I feel the frustration of my husband.